if God says so…

the running community back home is now mourning for the untimely demise of an avid runner, Mr. Romel Defeo. I never knew him personally, but i don’t know why i am so moved by this occurrence. apparently, he collapsed around the 18th km mark running the half marathon at last Sunday’s PSE Bull Run held at the Global City. cause of his death was Hypokalemia.
when a friend posted the condolence message on facebook, i searched and found out that he was 35 years old, and the president of a run club, Sigue Correr Runners club (“keep running” in spanish). sometimes you would think someone who is so young and physically active as he was is far from anything like this to occur but we can never tell.
i, for one, have always been warned by my sister to take it easy, as i have heart beat irregularities. i’ve had my thyroidectomy 30 years ago, and i still do feel some discomfort once in a while. but not during running. in fact, i feel fine, so i think..
yes it is very true that we runners should know our limits and be more conscious of health conditions before we hit the road for long runs or trail hikes. i discipline myself by not pushing myself too hard, i avoid comparison traps that will only lead me either to frustration or overdoing what my body cannot. also, i try to read as much as i can so that i will understand more how my body deals with the pressure or simply just to prepare myself. but no matter how prepared we are, if God says it’s over, then it is so.
for me, each day i wake up is a thanksgiving that i am given one more day to draw nearer to Him. if and when the day of beckoning comes, i will be ready to meet with my Creator, even if i’m still on my 10th, 15th, or 19th km mark, my race is finished.
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i believe that Mr. Defeo’s passing away has already been recorded in his book of life even before he was born. the day it happened, it was not Murphy’s law, it was not coincidence, it was not the lack of time, nor lack of or delayed medical attention, if it was the case, no, it was planned for already by the Almighty, that is my own belief. if God says so, then it will be.
Sincere condolences to Mr. Defeo’s family.
“Romans 14:8
For if we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. Therefore, whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s.”

just thinking about….

on the internet news today,, another athlete swimmer died of cardiac arrest at a young age of 26… i read the comments below the news article.. people are wondering why a young and supposedly physically fit person would suddenly go, and by heart failure at that.

a friend of mine recently told me about her sister who lives alone in her flat, had a stroke around 12 noon (because it was routine for her to go online to chat with another sister at this time). she was seated in front of her computer when she felt heaviness on the right side of her body until she fell onto the floor sideways. she could hardly speak so could not shout for help until around 9 p.m. when a neighbor friend fortunately came to see her and in less than 5 minutes, the ambulance whisked her off to the hospital emergency. she survived…

stories like these make me wonder how it will be when my time is over… will i be at home? will i be asleep? or during my practice runs? or by the bus stand? will i be with my Dersky when it happens? or it could be now as i tap on my keyboards… nobody knows, i will never know. all i know is,, i feel, i would pass for a physically fit person, nothing to worry about, i eat right as much as i can… maybe like that young athlete… but, still,, no one can tell when my final time will come.

what am i supposed to do then? well, i found some bible scriptures that help me understand my existence more and so that i will not be afraid to go if ever my “pink slip” is handed to me by God, i would like to share them with you:

i was created to acknowledge Him as my Creator: “Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth. Worship the Lord with gladness; come before him with joyful songs. Know that the Lord is God. It is he who made us, and we are his; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.” Psalms 100:3

in everything i do: “So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.” 1 Corinthians 10:31

that my stay here is temporary: “So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” 2 Corinthians 4:18

therefore: “Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.” Colossians 3:2

how about you? are you ready to leave anytime? think about it… 


the wait is over….

mama has finally been laid to rest at 1 p.m. yesterday, Sunday.
our long wait for her sufferings to end is over.. and i am happy..

friends came and expressed their condolences. her funeral chapel abound with flowers from dear friends and relatives..

death sumtimes is the only event  where we get to see friends and relatives we have not seen for ages. Mama’s employees from way back when we were kids and teenagers were there! it was a reunion of sorts that gave a joyous ambience for the wake rather than a solemn, sorrowful one.. some of them have kids who are also now working for my sister’s companies. some had better lives, some remained the same, some didn’t make it good… but everyone was happy to see us and the feeling was very mutual.

on her last night with us, we concelebrated it with a Christian necrological service and a Catholic Mass. i shared a short eulogy (read below)..


Mama enjoyed meeting people, was a very sociable person, very humble, that’s why i know Mama is smiling down from heaven for two reasons,, first and foremost, she is finally at home with the LORD, second,, her loyal old time friends / employees joined us in taking her to her last destination here on earth, unmindful of the traffic as well as the long wait for the rites & ceremonies to end.

Mama’s leaving us may be the time God has planned it to be, i rely on His Sovereignty and believe that everything He already planned even before we were born. With that faith in my heart, i am sure that my destiny has already been laid out and all i got to do is follow Him.

then one day,, i, too will find my way home just like Mama..

Revelation 21:4 He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.”


Read at the necrol0gical service, December 17, 2011:

“God comforts us whenever we suffer. That is why whenever other people suffer, we are able to comfort them by using the same comfort we have received from God.” 2 Corinthians 1:24

Friends and family, thank you very much for joining us in our mourning for mama, they say, shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared is doubled..

Now, we have double happiness, because,, mama not only is over with her struggles physically, but also, she is already home with our Creator. Isnt that a great reason to celebrate.. what about sorrow? They say DEATH BE NOT PROUD.. so,, what is death?? It is just a phase, a passing through, the gateway to eternal bliss… so no more sorrows for us to share.

Being with my mother, as many of you know her when she was still around, was never a dull moment… there were instances like we just look at each other, then we just start giggling for no reason at all.. that was how she was,, very childlike, very positive person…

When at the hospital, I browsed through my memory bank,  of any incidents in my life with her that manifested any negativity… as if I cannot recall,, of course there were times like those but, her optimism prevailed in my memory…  her battlecry was “strike while the iron is hot”…

The one thing we are all happy about was her days before she became ill, she began a personal relationship with the Lord.. we would have bible studies in her tiny room in my house,, she will start roll calling each of her grandchildren with my second sister,, then we will just read the verse for the day, study the scripture and share our feelings… but,, unfortunately, we always end up giggling, laughing, & teasing each other…  but of course,, she remembers what we studied.. because one night, she told me while we were alone in her room… “anak, I am ready”… I said ready for what? She said,, to be with Jesus…  but she was smiling saying that.. what a peaceful thing to hear from her.. and maybe we all ought to plan ahead to be ready to see Jesus…

Mama,, we will miss you.. but we will see you again… thank you for all life lessons you gave us…

I thank you all for sharing your time with our dearest mom, Aling Conching..



Death: the way to eternal bliss

we have a long weekend for “All souls’ day”, and as expected, tv shows mostly are about Halloween, spooky movies and movies about dying or dead people, so i am now sitting here pondering about death.

how do you see death? is it a beginning or an ending? as described in the poem “Death be not proud” by John Donne (read poem here), it is thought of as a dreadful thing but actually is something not to be fearful about, and to be accepted as one that will bring us to eternal bliss. For Christian believers, death is just the beginning as well as it is the ending.

yes, dying is something definite in one’s life, even in my mother’s, and i am so aware that she is almost being snatched away by death, in each day of her struggle to live. yes, i welcome death in this situation, as i know, Mama will awaken into eternal happiness and pain free life, and that thought gives me so much comfort and peace…

2 Corinthians 5:8
“Yes, we are fully confident, and we would rather be away from these earthly bodies, for then we will be at home with the Lord.”

as i wait for death’s final knock on Mama’s hospital room door, i shall look to it as my slave, i shall welcome it with the blessed assurance of my mama’s final destination, and that is to live with the Lord God in heaven, “where death shall be no more….”