cheers!!!

ONCE AGAIN… it’s my birthday month… and not just another birthday… i am turning “five-oh” in less than a month!!!

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i have been thinking of blogging about my own timeline, but you see,ย i am a ‘plane jane’.. nothing spectacular i did in all of 50 years that needs to be written about… in my journal though, i wrote down experiences i remember clearly from the day i was born to the present, the highs and lows i went through, and tallied everything…. the good news is… my highs surpassed my lows ๐Ÿ™‚

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school photos i got from friends, losing everything in the terrible flood

i have nothing much to share with you except that, in the beginning of this year, i have said that 2014 will be my year of joy.. yes, it has been a joyful 5 months so far, not that everything came up roses, just right, and “livable” for that matter.. and there’s more to come.. traveling to see my siblings in California for the first time next week, celebrating my beloved niece’s 16th birthday, (Teresa) whom i have not seen for 6 years, and of course, my birthday lunch with my family and so on…

for everything, i thank who else,, but our great CREATOR… for creating me,, that i had a normal childhood, that i am able to rise up from my lowest days of my life, and that i am not perfect but the LORD gives me peace and joy in most circumstances..

i pray that i am able to encourage you by knowing a little about me, how God makes me see all the goodness He does for my life, despite the tears, mine may not be as dire as what you have gone through but know that God is the only one who can turn our pain to gain…ย 

so… CHEERS!! to my fiftieth, and more to come… ๐Ÿ™‚

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M.

may the 4th be with Allyn…

well, nothing to do with Star Wars’ saga.. but May 4th is RunVan and is eleven days away… same as last year, i am so excited.

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it will be a special day, i am dedicating my half marathon run to my running mentor, my friend, my coach, Allyn, aka OWL-lyn.. OWL-lyn because many times i catch her deep in the night in the Far East, chatting with our group viber members here in the North Americas, when we are just about to start our day, she’s a night owl… and May the 4th happens to be her golden birthday!

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in my early days of learning to be a runner, she supported me many times, ran with me in countless 5 kms races, despite that she is already a full marathoner, ran with me on my first 10km run as my photographer to document every step i made, i experienced my first trail run at Timberland Heights, though not with her as she did 10kms, i did 5 kms, but she got the race kit for me.. and the rest is history… (er,, i think i have blogged about this a few times)…

she claims she doesn’t run as often as she did, family responsibilities and a new job got in the way… so, ahem, i do the running for her. but i do hope she can still fulfill her dream of running an ultramarathon, i will definitely cheer for her.

this is supposed to be my final week of my 16 week train plan.. but, i chose to do cross-training and maybe do one 10km run on Saturday, and two more short runs next week, then shake out time. ok, i know it’s only half marathon, like, it’s not going to be as grueling as a 42km run.. but let’s just say, i want to feel like i’m a full marathoner he he.. just let me be.. give the “old” lady a break.. ๐Ÿ™‚

Allyn, my dear friend, i’ll greet you on your birthday, watch out for my surprise!!

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2014 Tech shirt and 21.1 km medal

“A friend loveth at all times; And a brother is born for adversity.” ~Proverbs 17:17

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aging and aching…

i turned another year older a few days ago… i have expressed before that i welcome getting older, whether or not i have achieved my goals and dreams, i’m happy and okay, thank God for making me feel okay :). i danced the Zumba for the first time on my birthday ๐Ÿ™‚

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but the problem is, my body seems not to agree with my mind. maybe she knew i turned 49 that symptoms of arthritic pains or whatever you want to call them, are slowly creeping into my joints, particularly my shoulder and my hip.

i am suffering from frozen shoulder pain (left side) maybe about 2 months now, but prior to that, i was already feeling a bit of heaviness around the area and it is becoming worse the past weeks. this one, i know it was caused by one workout i did at home a few months back. at least i know where it came from.

and then, 2 days ago, i was sedentarily working when i felt pain in my butt area to my hamstring to my thigh (left side too). hmmm, trying to recall if i fell or hit on something, i cannot think of what may have caused this, i am blaming my birthday..

i have never visited any physio or chiro or acupuncturist. actually, i didn’t want to. i know it will heal by itself just like when i had groin pull years ago overdoing a yoga stretch (i often overdo things tsk tsk..) now it’s been healed and i am back to my vinyasa routine. but again, i guess with my shoulder pain, my downward dog will slow down for a while .. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

i still run regularly, though, thinking my shoulder doesn’t participate in the activity anyway, but a friend advised me that the pounding may not be so good on the shoulder. i can’t really know if it’s a sign that i should rest from running? but no, i can’t think of it. i promise i will take care of my shoulder by exercising it moderately, using heating pad, and then can i still run?

it is okay to enjoy what God has given me, but to abuse it maybe is not. one night when it was hard for me to sleep because i cannot find the right position when there was throbbing pain on shoulder and butt side, i silently prayed to God to take it away soon. i did not promise Him anything, i just asked to be healed.

so,ย my butt pain is almost gone,ย the shoulder pain is still there, ย  maybe God is teaching me patience, or making me realize my stubbornness or telling me to slow down..

in real life, i know i am and will always be responsible for my actions, therefore, put myself in trouble and suffer the consequences. at this point, as i turn a year older, i still pray to God to always guard me from doing things on my own will that may harm me and humble me to heed to what He wants for me, which i know will always be good.

James 1:22 ” Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.”

M.

i love JUN!!!

OOPSIE,, i should have written “i love JUNE” and not Jun.. Jun happens to be my husband’s everyday nickname. but it’s okay, it still sounds and means the same to me.. June or Jun he he..

3 days ago, we traveled more than 6,500 miles to be here in my hot & humid beloved country, the Philippines.. i am still jet lagged at this time. since yesterday, i have been getting up at 2 a.m. which is 11 a.m. in North America. although i did not want to leave the confines of our a/c’d bedroom, or else i will melt if i step out of this room, it is so humid outside…

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after settling down for one full day on Friday, order of the day on Saturday was to contact my running friend, Laila.. and yes, we had a great time at the track.. started at 5:30 a.m. and had a good one hour run in the humid weather. it was nice to see her again.

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i love June because it is my birthday month,,, so what? you say, i know, i add one more year which is quite exciting for me.. i can’t wait to reach my golden year next year. i can’t explain why but i love saying “i’m 50” hahaha.. i guess i love the words i hear after i say that.. “why you don’t look like you’re 50” (vanity- shame on me hehe)

well, no matter what, we all will definitely age, we all mature and wrinkle, and it is how we deal with it that matters. as for me, i am joyful for what i am and i have now, a bit wiser, not much richer financially, though, but getting there, if i start buying my lottery tickets.. hehe..

so far so good on my first day in June running with a friend.. ย it’s a good start for a good vacation.

so there,, i thank God not only for each day of June but thank Him for my everyday… i am blessed.. ๐Ÿ™‚ย 

“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.” ~ 2 Corinthians 4:16

M.

i am forgiven…

oh dear…
i have yet to start writing this blog, i am already having a lump in my throat..
this morning, my sister reminded me that it will be Tiris’ 14th birthday (June 8th). HOW COULD I??? how could i forget the birthday of the little girl who is very much part of my life… ย (read: Happy Birthday to my Bebeto)

have you heard of the condition of having a selective memory? in medical terms, it is called Lacunar Amnesia (i read all about it) briefly described as an amnesia only for certain events. Further, it does exist to someone who refuses to remember an experience in one’s life which is caused by his/her own doing, and from which guilt or loneliness may come about and the sense of hopelessness or low self esteem may arise again.

after Therese (or Bebeto, a pet name we used to call her for “my baby” in the vernacular baby talk) and i went our separate ways 4 years ago, i have refused to look at her pictures, refused to browse through my photo CDs collected over the years when she was with me, refused to hear any news how she was doing in the States with her family, i shut off my communications with my siblings and no one ever mentioned her to me, and if they did, i just hear it but never listen, ย until such time that i have learned that God Himself has forgiven me…. the guilt of not choosing to keep Therese was like a huge mountain over my shoulders, it was a burden. i have had sleepless nights that my Dersky was already worrying for me.

but as always, God has been my only refuge in times of crisis, as the bible says “Be still and know that i am God” Psalm 46:10, only then i heard Him comforting me, and telling me to just “Trust in Him with all my heart and lean not on my own understanding” Proverbs 3:5.

now i know things happen in my life as God plans them to happen, all i have to do is to trust in Him and stop blaming myself, to just move on and look forward to better days. anyone who carries the same guilt i did, remember God forgives as long as we admit our mistakes and that “there is therefore now no condemnatiion for those who are in Christ Jesus” Romans 8:1

slowly, i was able to embrace the fact that Therese is now a pretty young lady, and i am happy to hear stories about her and anticipating to see her soon when we plan our travel to the states.

and lastly, forgetting her birthday this time is… plain memory lapses due to ageing?? but, as i have said, God has forgiven me and life goes on…

M.

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my birthday month..

two days from today, it will be the start of my birthday month.

how do i celebrate it? first, let me tell you about my age.. if i am turning 48 in Gregorian calendar (which i am, and which calendar we all normally follow), i should be turning 49 in Chinese calendar.. then in some Chinese beliefs, (for which my family believed in this), the number 9 of any age is skipped (for superstition-i don’t have any idea what and why) so in this instance, 49, we count it as 50…

therefore, i am 50 years old?? Praise God.. haha..not that i want to advance my age sooner ย (except for the senior’s discounts i will be enjoying), i just feel good saying that i am 50… ๐Ÿ™‚

okay all superstitions and what ever beliefs aside, how will i celebrate my birthday? nothing much, except for one, a gift for myself, i will be running my very first half marathon via the Scotiabank Vancouver Half Marathon event on June 24. you see, i ran the 5km distance for about 2 years since i started running, then i moved on to running 10kms.. now i will take a stab at doing half, just before i turn 50, then i can say to myself, i made it. ๐Ÿ™‚

my husband wants to take me out of town as his present for me as i have been bugging him to bring me to this and that place.. but with the registration for the run event and all the other expenses the come with the training (including coffee times and lunch out with my running buddy, Evelyn and what nots).. i told him we can just do the usual, simple dinner at home or any fine dining place.

i am so thankful to God for all the blessings He has given me all these years. truly He keeps His promise to take care of me and for all that i have received, what else can i give back to Him except to love Him with all my heart and my soul and my mind (Matthew 22:37 “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind”). i am happy… i am happy God created me. i am happy to share my happiness.. To Him be the Glory!

Psalm 71:6
From birth I have relied on you; you brought me forth from my mother’s womb. I will ever praise you.

M.

Happy Birthday Dersky!

well, well,, my Dersky will be celebrating his nth birthday hehehehe..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you my Dersky… ๐Ÿ™‚

ย hmmm, what can i offer you as a present that money cannot buy?

my home baked pineapple pecan cake

a cake? perhaps not, because i cannot bake one for you, uh-uh, baking is not on my list of expertise.

dersky’s yummy roast chicken

a roast chicken? again, no, because you roast the best chicken in my world, hehe, that i am sure of..

my best recipe? well, for almost 18 years we have been twogether, you have tasted my best and my worst, you have been my connoisseur in all of my experiments in the kitchen, hahaha… so, scrap that, it will not be as exciting.

oh, i remember now.. my RESPECT for YOU my Dersky…. this for sure is priceless!

i know we’ve had our arguments and disagreements, but at the end of the day, you are still my dearest friend and ally, and for that, i thank God for having you, especially in my times of aloneness,,, near me or far from me, you are always in my heart..

okay.. love you dersky, this page is for you this time…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! enjoy your birthday…

“However, let each one of you love his wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.” Ephesians 5:33

M.