how do you see it?

how do you see this picture? take a look at it, and ponder on it…

however you describe it,, that is your perspective,, as for me, this was where i was… no words come out of my mind how to describe “me”… like, i was in limbo… between sad and happy… cold and warm,,,, at peace and in chaos…. between summer and autumn….

has it ever occurred to you like you feel you are lost but you’re sure where you are? or you know what you want but you want something else? hmmm,, they say this may be one of many effects of hypothyroidism, having an indecisive mind… or has it something to do with me being a Gemini? described as the ficklest minded people on earth,, oh, but i don’t follow zodiac signs really… just a thought..

i remember the verse, Romans 7:15 “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.” these were the exact words of Paul, describing how he struggled between doing good and the not good. where am i in this? not that i need to choose between good and evil.. it is the feeling of wanting to be here and there at the same time.. or wanting to do this and that… either now or later, or even never… 

but… “Be still, sayeth the Lord” (Psalm 46:10),, and as always, it is in these situations do i see and hear God clearly in my life, “who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord” (Romans 7:25). what great relief that i do have Him in my heart, that my path enlightened and my ways straightened..

M.

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